I grew up
in church. My parents would make me go to church every Sunday and being the
diligent that child I was, I always felt obligated to attend. It wasn't until I
was 15 that I gave my life to Jesus for the first time.
Now our
relationship was a bit on and off. He would try and I would backslid. Whenever
I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders, I would crawl back into His
arms; and He always welcomed me.
Throughout
the years, this would become the norm for me. The start of 2017 was incredibly
difficult for me. I thought I had everything worked out, but then the mat got
pulled out right under me and I fell hard. Getting up proved to be even harder
with my anxiety and depression looming, but on 16 February 2017 at 05:00 I woke
up with reassurance that everything will be okay.
I cried,
laughed and sang for joy because my Father took my hand that morning and has not
let go of it. Throughout the year, His presence has been a tangible part of me;
I have grown. I went through a journey that could have broken me, I discovered;
and ended journeys with people I thought were meant to be a part of my life, but
all of that has shaped me into who I needed to become.
As I
stepped into a future unknown, I needed God to guide me. I prayed restlessly
for the new journey He took me on and now more than ever I am more aware of my
identity in Christ. I have discovered who I am in Christ.
I realised
that no matter how many times I failed and fell, God always came through. He
always stepped in and pulled me up; I was just too self-absorbed that I could not
see. As I reflect back, I realise that all endings became beginnings.
Where I was
once soft-spoken and always talked over, I have a voice now; where I lost a
friend, I received others that support and fulfil my journey; where I lacked
confidence, I now am able to look at myself and say that I am worthy. I am HIS
BELOVED.
I chose to
continue my life as a new being in Christ. I'm looking forward to growing more
in Christ. I joined Hugs for Christ in 2016, mostly because my cousin wouldn't
stop pestering me, ha-ha. But after the first outreach, I was hooked!
I experienced
Jesus in a whole other way... The joy of people running with open arms to you
is a feeling indescribable. Just one hug from a random person; just one hug
from someone that ''needed'' it… It's truly been an awesome blessing to be part
of this beautiful project.
Father has been faithful to this cause. What started as a sharing hugs on a Saturday has turned into a winter drive, collecting stationery for under privileged children, giving gifts for those who don't have families to spend Christmas with and keeping the city, our communities clean.
